Scene Study with Alan

Scene study with Alan Langdon was intimidating, inspiring and quite revealing.

Alan Langdon

My first scene study assignment was with a young girl named Yarissa. Beautiful name, beautiful girl. She was a sweetheart. Trying to find time to practice our scene was difficult. Between all our classes, memorizing scenes, monologues, music, and limited access to rehearsal space, it was a struggle. But find time we did.

Eventually it was our turn to present our scene. Before each scene we were to do an exercise where we told our classmates about things going on in our life or in other words, roadblocks to being able to open up and give an honest performance. The idea was to clear our minds from those things and be able to access our feelings and life experiences in order to apply it to our character.

I started by telling my class that ever since my father had died I had been walking around wanting to scream or yell. (Strangely the urge to scream came at the oddest times – like in the middle of the grocery  store for example.) I started to continue on to tell more of my story but Alan tried to interject some direction. (Little did I realize that the acting lesson had already begun.) I kept trying to talk and he kept saying to me, “So scream”. I ignored him for a few seconds  and tried to continue on with my story, but he persisted. Quietly and firmly he said it a couple of more times. “Scream”.

And scream I did. For quite a long time.
It was deep, loud and long. and then suddenly it was over.

My classmates were stunned and silent. My friend Alex later told me that the hair stood up on his arms. No one else ever said a word to me about it.
Let me explain here that class was sacred. What we told each other, the emotions and buried experiences that came out, were not shared outside the class room. It was a safe place. Alan made sure of it. There were students who remembered horrific experiences as children, one who recounted an attack by a trusted family member with a knife and so on. Yes it was a safe place and we walked out of there raw and spent. It was strangely freeing and yes, glorious.

After the scream I stood there. Probably as shocked as my classmates but strangely calm and present. I looked at them, (breathing heavily through my nostrils daring anyone to say anything)  looked at Alan, and turned to face my partner. I said nothing, just stood there and breathed. Yarissa stared back at me. She could say nothing. So we did our scene.

Alan made a comment to me when it was over and he had worked with us for awhile. He said,” When you are present, we hunger for you.”

That was my first scene study class.




4 comments on “Scene Study with Alan

  1. MakieDoll
    April 25, 2011 at 7:05 am

    and so I have no words…


    Maybe that one works.

    “Be present.”

    It is great wisdom. A challenge – but a liberating one.

  2. Brianna
    April 30, 2011 at 1:49 pm

    What an amazing compliment he gave you, and so true!

  3. Karla
    June 21, 2011 at 12:13 pm

    Screaming it does work ….. you should try it….. even in a corn field where no one can see you!!!!!

    • Shelly
      June 22, 2011 at 11:46 am

      And so it does my dear Karla, so it does.

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